Everyday I move towards acceptance. Acceptance of my new way of living, new face and new view of the world. Acceptance of something forced upon me isn’t easy. It’s f@#$ing hard! A small step forward followed by three steps back, quickly followed by a tiny step forward. I’m moving forward even if it is at a snail’s pace. I believe I’ve described my progress as sloth-like in previous entries so, I’ll stick with it because it is accurate!
The pace of the progress can be really frustrating but every time I take a step back or feel as if I might fall there is someone there to pick me up. I am surrounded by cheerleaders, motivators and supporters. Everyday I receive an uplifting voicemail, a love-filled text, a motivating phone call or a beautiful card. Everyday. I’m so appreciative.
This weekend my sister Tara and a great friend of mine, Jenny, created a Go Fund Me page to help me with my medical bills. I still haven’t wrapped my head around it. For years raising money for scholarships was a big part of my job. I loved it just as much as I loved awarding them. The feeling was indescribable. To have the tables turned on me has thrown me for a loop. People want to help me? They want to raise money to help me? Me? Really? The feeling has left me speechless. Tara and Jenny (And John) did an amazing job! I’ve run out of adjectives to describe my appreciation so, I’ll just say I am going to sleep this morning feeling like the most LOVED person in the world.
Please check out Tara and Jenny’s site and feel free to share! http://www.gofundme.com/teamhazeleye